Why I prefer introversion

Then there comes a time when you’re utterly disappointed with what life throws at you. Something that you wish you had never confronted. A few hard things pecked on my whole being just as worse as a woodpecker peck on trees as deep until a fully formed cavity starts generating. At this point, I feel like rushing out from my own existence but I cannot. I run to seek help from a few human beings, “Friends” , as I say then I halt to realize that I do not have any. Oh geez, why I haven’t befriended a couple or more people whom I could just trot to at bad times. However, things start to fall back at its place when a person whom I called my BEST FRIEND ages ago who still looks at me with his chin up, smirking. As if complaining about why I walked past him and looked for aid from people that I knew never existed. Well he was right. There might be a reason of I, having lack of trust and disbelief. Maybe they make things a bit more complicated, entangled and an absolute mash of complaints, unnecessary gossips, anger, ruthlessness, demands and what not. To me it can be handled, but the wave coming from more than a person is petrifying. How could you just sit back doing nothing but handle a drama endlessly for the rest of the day despite, you had so much to talk or unladen from the worst dream you have had last night. Or maybe your school results are not going well and you just wanted someone to listen to you that you need a break and you cannot handle the stress anymore. But no. They are the humans of their own utopia. Rather, it’s my own wrecked soul that pulls me back to the only person I claim to be a life savior. After a huge hectic day mixed with uneven spiritual feelings to the most annoying mental trauma, I end up wigging out on him. He listens, he motivates, he scolds, he smiles yet he never fails to be only mine. He teaches me from wrong to right. He believes in me. Probably this is the only thing that makes me stay. He is the only reason why I do not demand for more. I maybe wrecked but I do have just ONE person who is ready to deal with my varying wrecks and I am totally happy with it.