My decision to find myself!

Ignorance towards my true self is something I lived with for a long time, I believe. So I think I’m slowly digging my true self too deeper to know who I am as a person. One out of many things that I discovered lately is that, I avoid social interaction quite often, rather inadvertently. Especially when I have multiple people around me talking totally random, the spectrum of sanity suggests that  one would contribute in the conversation, but I choose to stay quiet or talk too little. Don’t know if it’s right or wrong, maybe you would tell me that? However, If I’m made to have a talk with the same group of people individually, I talk my heart out. I’ll share my stories listening to theirs. I ensure to walk the lane of openness, honesty and willingness to acknowledge the feelings of the person I am with. But social encounter with many people at a time makes me awkward most of the times. One of the facts that I hide that a lot from my friends. I conceal my weaknesses to a great extent, not because I’m insecure but because that’s how I am shaped since childhood. That’s why some of my friends would totally deny that thing in me, perhaps. I also heard that the deeper you dig the worse it gets. In my case, it was for the better. I always make efforts towards betterment. And I’m quite happy that I am no more a person I was two years back if not more.